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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

12.06.2025 00:34

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

It was going to be , some day.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

But ive been too sick for many years..

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This is soul school!.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

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She loved him until the end.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

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She married twice! .

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

Who then, do I blame.?

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He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

Why does the God of the Bible condemn homosexual acts?

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

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She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

So whats the point in blame.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

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They are buried together, in the same grave..

When she asked me how she looked .

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

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He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

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We were not on the streets..

But, we were locked up after school.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

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Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

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Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

Im dying but, im not bitter.

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On the 31st of Jan this month .

And who doesn’t know suffering?

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

She wouldn,t have been !

She found it foreign!.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

I was scared of men, in general

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

I have no regrets .

I don,t even have a pension.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

I waited trembling.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

And i lived it daily.

All the time i was locked up.

Comes on , in middle age.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

She was in good health!

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

Ive learnt so much.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

What did i know ?

He was dying to do it , i knew.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

He resisted the act ,that day.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

My life is so biszare .

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

I couldn’t, believe it.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

As i do to all so called friends.?

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

I was very sick at this time too.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

I was 9 years of age.

Im still living with it.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

My mum and dad in the seventies!

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

Why did i forgive my father ?

I said to her

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

Would this be the day?

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

My family never makes their pension either.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

Put me off passion for life!!

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

I think the readers, may guess!

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

This is how, and why children get BPD.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

I will be 64.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

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Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

He knew the spot.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

I did it because my mum asked me too!

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

Especially a lifetime of it.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

I could never make a relationship work though!

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

The only rule us 5 kids had .

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

We all went to grammer schools

But it wasn’t much.

I was seconnd youngest,

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

I had hoped to write a book about this .

One cannot live in the past .

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

I write beautiful poetry .

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

Was to survive, this bastard.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

(And it was in our own minds.)

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

So, i spoilt her more .

I never cut or harmed myself..

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

Thats was my nicest nick name for him